“Can’t i sing with the girls?”: A transgender music educator’s journey

I’m so sick of being a boy, and though I talk about it all the time, I don’t think people truly realize how sad and insecure I really am. I play everything off as a big joke, but deep down, I am terrified of people’s true opinions of me and I’m scared. I’m scared of making these changes in my life. I’m scared of becoming a woman … and most of all, I’m scared that once I finish with all these changes, I’ll look in the mirror and still hate my life. I’m scared that this hatred of myself will never go away. I’m scared that I won’t ever be able to live a normal life as a woman. I’m just plain … scared.